So yeah, about that time I almost flashed a stranger*
*it was yesterday
Here’s what happened: I’m organizing a live webinar for a ton of kickass ladies, right? And in order to host said webinar, I need to hire adequate software so that the whole thing doesn’t come crashing down mid-class.
This is how I found myself scheduling a call on a normal Wednesday morning, so a rep could walk me through their particular platform’s features and answer my questions.
The operative word here is call.
Maybe I’m old school, but to me a call is ring ring, hello, talk on the phone. Right?
So when at the scheduled time my phone had yet to ring, I went into my email to check for any last minute cancellations, but what I found instead was a call invite.
Okay, so we’re not having a call on the actual phone, it’s a call on the computer. No problem!
I thought nothing of it, accepted that call invite, got connected and… there was also video.
Right there on my screen was my tired-ass face, on display for all to see! With runny mascara dark under my eyes, my hair a matted mess, in torn pj’s, my baby on me in her carrier, and half a boob out. And that rep guy, my god that poor guy. I’m telling you, that rep guy did not see this coming. I was mortified!! And he was rattled!! Bless his heart, all he kept saying is how cute my baby is. Thank you, anonymous rep guy, for trying so hard to not to notice the hot fucking mess I very obviously was. #notallheroswearcapes
Panic! I wanted to cancel the whole damn thing and close that computer shut, webinar software be damned.
But I really need this.
I really want this.
I can’t put it off any longer if I want to get the results I’m after.
So I chose to stay.
Ratty hair and baby drool, I stayed. And I learned and listened and now I’m so much better off for it.
What does any of this have to do with you?
Well, this is you.
This is you when you’re afraid of going to the gym because you’re convinced others will notice you don’t know what you’re doing.
This is you when you’re standing clueless in the produce section of your supermarket and so sure people are judging.
This is you when you feel so out of place in the weight room surrounded by bros and meatheads and convinced you don’t belong there.
You have the choice to hang on to that awkwardness and embarrassment, and let them rule your choices and become your life’s story.
Or you can decide, once and for all, that life itself is a messy, sticky, embarrassing, awkward, frightening, wonderful adventure, and sometimes you’ll feel out of place and stupid, and you can still choose to go on. Listen, chances are feelings of inadequacy will pop up from time to time in different areas of your life. Don’t fight them– accept them. This is true bravery! Feeling those things and still moving forward! Stop taking yourself so damn seriously and take the next step already.
“You probably wouldn’t worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do.” ― Olin Miller
Worse comes to worse, you’ll get some pretty funny tales to share and make other people laugh. Nothing wrong with that 😉